Starting this off!

My mood is actually "reflective."   There doesn't seem to be a choice for that, nor a way to put in your own word.  Oh, well!

Here's to starting to try to capture some of my random thoughts......   M and her friend, Mad, have the expression "randomness" lately.   My thoughts are often all over the place, many at once even.   I don't know which ones I'll get captured on here, either.   So, we'll see:)

I had lunch today with my old boss, my new boss, and the other managers here.   Not that I can afford lunch out as readily as they can, but hey.   It was decent food, at a new place nearby in this being-built up town, that I chose based on their very positive attitude on the phone.   I miss my old boss.......   I work closely w/ my bosses.   I really like this new guy a lot (professionally speaking).  I'm psyched that he's the one that came here.   But, I still miss my old boss.   We're all friends, too.    I hadn't seen him since he left, and I am glad he and his wife and family are doing well.   They deserve that.

M comes back home today, which always has me excited.  She was w/ her dad last night, and his long-term girlfriend and their 3-year old daughter.   M'll have her riding lesson this afternoon, a glorious day, low 70's, sunny, light breeze:)   What a great day to be outside at "the barn."   I got to watch her on Monday, Easter Monday, no school and I took the day off.   We brought her dog with us, too.  

M somehow thinks she's spending all summer there (in camp).   I need to find time to re-go over with her just what her summer schedule is.    I sure wish she could spend half of her summer or so there, but, not happening.

I've been working, too, coming back here now and then to drop in another sentence or two.   I usually multi-task really well.   Sometimes it helps keep me sane and from being entirely bored.   This journal is in the background.

A friend, L, has a big job interview right now and I'm so wishing her well -- it'd be an awesome job fit for her:)    Another (IRL) friend meets w/ our daughters teacher this afternoon, plus the school principal.   I do hope that goes well, and, frankly, more worried about that one.    I feel real good about L's!

Men:   I heard from Chas today but not R nor BJ.    I'm not interested in Chas.   We went on a blind dinner date w/ him and, eh, but I got convinced to give him another try, so I told Chas I would see him again in a casual setting not centered around food.   Our schedules hadn't meshed, but he knows this weekend they might.   I'd hoped he'd forgotten by now.....   and also rather hoping to spend more time w/ R, too.   I'm not even looking for someone to date.   I have things in my life, M's and my life, that I wish to focus and work on.   I try, anyway:)   I have no desperation for dating, either, just wish to remain open enough to the idea if someone came along that seemed, well, like a good match/worthwhile trying out.  And, I really like BJ.   BJ lives in (another state), which is just over 800 miles away, so yeah, that's a problem.   We're honest w/ each other, and we're open to being able to date others, but gosh, he's really really special:)   And, we stay in touch, etc., haven't SEEN him since December, but!!   So, I did hear from BJ yesterday, and we do regularly stay in touch, calls, e-mails, etc..  

R, though, is "new."   Like I said, I wasn't looking.   A friend formerly in my Irish dance group was throwing a party when I could go (M away w/ her dad that weekend).   I kind-of made myself go, b/c I was in a "cleaning the home" mode and then no one answered her door at first, either, but, I made myself open it up and smile and walk in.   It was a fun, interesting group of people, most I had not met before.   I don't often run into groups of single people within my age group, either.   Even if R had not showed up, I'd have enjoyed it.   A bit after I got there, a guy arrives (R) and I'm thinking, hmmm, somewhat cute.....   we talked a LOT, and I really think we both enjoyed it (things he said, way he acted, etc.).   He works for MY agency, too!   He's "my" type of science geek, lol.   AND a Christian, Catholic though and in a Catholic social group that could indicate that he won't date a non-Catholic.   Anyway, we've "talked" some via e-mail lately (after I sent him an e-Easter card).   I could likehim, okay, I do like him from what I know, not head over heels, but a good feeling, as if serendipity.   He's moving slowly, so perhaps he's shy, or uncertain.   I can't stress over it, yanno?   Even if, admittedly, I'd just like to know if he'll ask me out or not (I told my g/f that I wasn't looking to date, but R, yes, I'd go if he asked me out).   I told L that I KNOW the pattern for BJ and I by now, 1 2/3 year later in our own way, but I don't know R's "pattern."   I'm not one to push, anyway, but I don't think R's one to BE pushed, either.  

So, M has about 20 minutes left to school today, then off to "the barn."  :)   More bits and pieces another day........ 

(Maybe I'll even have a child support check waiting for me when we get home tonight, too.)