Thursday, May 10, 2007

May has no "r" (yes, your Godmother approves of the boy)

Sunday and Monday didn't feel very much like summer is approaching.   Much cooler, I wore my jacket and layers.  The jacket that still has the two birthday cards in them that I somehow didn't give to SJ and LE while sitting at the very same table.  LE turned 18 years old, amazingly enough, a week before SJ turned 43 years old, yep, you'll always be younger than me, SJ, so guess I can say it.  Besides, you got carded Saturday night, anyway.  I hope I get them mailed before LE graduates!    SJ put on her shirt the little e-flowered official "national cherry blossom festival pin" I'd gotten.  
 
I figure they didn't mind the temperature, being from Maine.  SJ is how I'm going to refer to my cousin like a sister/ Dougie's sister, now, and LE is her daughter, my goddaughter. 
 
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, LEL!!!!!   Hard to believe it! 
 
SJ's son/ LE's brother didn't come on this trip, but LE's boyfriend, Joey did.  Hmmm.  I trust SJ to check him out and be certain he's okay and all, but I still felt as if I, also, had to be certain!   After all, this is LE's boyfriend.   When Joey had stepped away, SJ told me that she knows he looks a bit rough around the edges, but he's really a sweetheart inside, LE piping in about it, also.   Seems she's liked him since 8th grade and would sneak photos of him at hockey games, he as a senior.   I'm happy to report that he's really considerate and respectful of all of us, particularly LE.  And, still plays hockey, so he's cool AND nice.  Even if he didn't remember what city the Star Spangled Banner was written in ;)  Yeah, I had to throw out one history question just cuz everyone was right THERE in Baltimore.
 
SJ always cheered, in high school, in college, and then coached high school cheering.  I remember LE as a toddler or very young girl, cheering on the side while SJ coached.  Dougie's oldest girl also cheered, now a first year student at Portland School of Art oh yeah:)  Great fit for her, I'm so happy for her.  Dougie would be so proud, always great with art and design himself.  LE graduates high school ack, already, this year as does Dougie's youngest daughter.  LE goes on to school in Miami.  Hmmm, think she's ready for someplace WARM?
 
LE was in a huge cheering competition in Baltimore, possibly the same "national extreme cheerleading" type competition that Dougie's oldest competed in a few yearsback in downtown DC.  Very loud, and interesting.  Some squads costumes were not too short or too garish.   Some, like LE's squad, and the Gators (presumably from Florida?), and another squad with baby blue and black with white and silver, looked nice.  I knew to expect a ton of makeup.  Most have heavy glittery eyeshadow, some face designs even, that match the costumes.  LE said some of the hair is fake, also, even if it appears to be mostly flippy ponytails with big bright cheery ribbons, not the curly-wigs (nor tiaras) used for stepdancers.  Sometimes, a girl would do a quick outfit change publically, a bit like a girl will at a feis.  Nothing is actually being shown, everything pertinent is always covered, with bloomers or camisoles / tank tops / sports bras, but I imagine someone walking down the streets of Baltimore looking in the Mariner Arenas windows would do a double-take.  Ben and Jerry's was popular with those waiting, also.  LE's squad placed third in her group, which I thought sounded good but apparently was not so good, not what she expected.  And, only first and second place squads in each particular competition receive medals, not the case in Irish step dancing competitions (feiseanna or at an Oireachtas).   LE had also gotten smacked right above the eye, and her head throbbed for hours.  SJ, however, knew how to keep it in perspective.  Primarily, have fun, and also try to do your personal best.  This is their last big travel weekend for cheerleading competition, that it worked out to enjoy the city, and see me, a lot of money was spent so enjoy it.  They've both had a lot to deal with this past year or so.  Yes, just enjoy life.
 
B'more, or heck, one of my college roommates was from downtown "Balmer," or heck I'm still getting it wrong, had worked as a batgirl or peanut sales or something for the O's, (Orioles).   Done up downtown Baltimore is actually a great little fun city.  It's also fairly well marked, so when SJ said it's at the Mariner near the Convention Center, I just drove there w/out checking directions.  Even if she pronounced Mariner differently than I hear it said on the local radio stations.  Funny how I have lived in Maryland most of my life, even joined SJ and infant LE and others at "the" Baltimore Aquarium along with chaperoning countless school fieldtrips there, but it's not MY city.   I don't recall ever visiting Baltimore as a child.  There was no reason to, really; everything we'd want was local enough to DC, including my paternal grandparents living in Arlington. 
 
What a glorious weekend for the Inner Harbor and surrounding areas.  I told SJ that if they'd come on a different Sunday (and LE older), we could have gone to one of the "hole in the wall" pubs, as there's a good Irish one with dancing once a month on Sunday afternoons (J. Patrick's, near Fort McHenry).  Joey treated them to an Orioles game Saturday night, and I passed many orange-clad pedestrians Sunday afternoon.  SJ said it was 8-0 Orioles at 5th inning Saturday, so the women wanted to leave.  We ate at ESPN Zone, which is a first for me, too. 
 
It was just so good to see them, mostly, even the few hours with SJ, so much better in person, we just know, can put things in the proper light w/out need for explanation.   I can even see how Joey would "fit" for LE. 
 
The cheery, young, inexperienced eager Waitress listed the specials, and mentioned that the menu was new by about 2 weeks.  SJ asks what beers are on tap, several really.  I asked Waitress if the Samuel Adams Seasonal had switched to their Summer Ale.  "It's called Seasonal."  I'm polite when I tell her that there are different seasons, and Samuel Adams has different brews for the different seasons, so could she please check if it's the Summer Ale that is available now?   I asked her about the crab sandwiches.   Do they use frozen crabmeat or fresh, is it from blue crabs from the Chesapeake Bay?  She says yes, fresh Chesapeake Bay crabmeat.  Hmmm, like the SA beer is named Seasonal.  It feels too chilly to be summer yet, but what's the saying, only eat blue crabs/ it's ony blue crab season if it's a month without an "r" in it.   Barely May, but the menu is 2 weeks old so perhaps crab sandwiches just re-added, I'll risk it.  SJ debates, as the crab sandwich is pricier than other options (possibly as it IS real harvested Chesapeake Bay crab meat), but figures she really should have the crab.   A bit like having to eat lobster when visiting Maine in the summer.  I tell her that I'd asked about it as one famous Maryland seafood restaurant (Phillips Seafood) has been rumoured to have stopped using Chesapeake Bay crabmeat, and that some restaurants use frozen crabmeat to last throughout the year.  Joey started saying each month silently but out loud, as if to check which months have an "r" and which don't.  I'd forgotten to pick them up a bag of Old Bay potato chips.  LE's (late) father used to love the spice, Old Bay.  (FYI - it was real crab, tasty, too.  Could have used cocktail sauce of Old Bay instead of tartar sauce if I'd thought to ask lol.   SJ has never had soft-shelled crab, though.  Yummy, if I don't have to look at the eyes.)
 
Even if it did cost $23. in parking for less than 5 hours.  I really don't know other options, either, unless I lived in the close-in B'more suburbs and knew the local bus / rail routes or something.  That's really way too pricey, and left me without money to put IN the card for LE's birthday.   Especially with gas at either $3.09/gallon or $2.99/ballon (a block from each other).  (FYI -- today it's $3.11/gallon cheapest ack.)  Maybe in time for her graduation.
 
Monday, I'd organized a retirement luncheon for a coworker.  One woman debated ordering crab, but did, enjoying it much more than she had in (off-season) December from the same restaurant.  I started a trend at the table by ordering my usual half-iced tea, half-lemonade, aka, an Arnold Palmer.  This place now uses fresh-squeezed lemons and I could tell:)  Old Boss picked up my lunch tab.  He always did take care of me like that.  I enjoy working with Boss, while missing Old Boss, I suppose more socially speaking.
 
Now (written many hours earlier just couldn't copy/paste into an entry then), off to p/up my Missy M from The Barn, for her last rehearsal with this years performing troupe, and a bit of a party with them.  A gig tomorrow night and that may be it for this year. 
 
She got a 100 on her last algebra test YEAH I'm so proud, and may have some further revisions for her "literary analysis" of To Kill a Mockingbird.  We've talked of how she's getting real guidance on how to write better.   M is a good writer, yet is being challenged, which I think can only help M and improve her writing even further. 
 
Yawn.  Not that I believe a mother blue crab truly goes to her prodigy, nudging them to wake up, holding a calendar, "You have to get up and out of this mud now, see, it's May 1st tomorrow.  Restaurants want to put us on their menus."  (Okay, so I know watermen go by crabbing regulations.  They still have to wait until the crabs actually stop hibernating before they're truly harvestable.)
 
Happy May!  Yawn.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

"nice turnout" (a little dance video)

Found this quick video on an Irish stepdancing forum.   One commenter said "nice turnout lol."  Another suggested dresses.  :)  Hey, they stepdance better than *I* do!  YouTube - Arby's Chimps  (forgive the ad, enjoy the laugh)

After the initial cute video, there are links to some other Irish Stepdancers, or see these links of others I've gathered along the way:

Great traditional competition Irish stepdancing, first soft shoe (ghillies) then hard shoe. YouTube - 25th World Irish Dance Championship Girls 13-14 years 2.23 min long  Typically steps can't be filmed "live" in competitions, so not sure if this was official or what.  It does not include any full dance from any particular performer, which likely protects the particular schools steps from  being copied (learned) as readily. 

Same World Champsionship competition, older girls:  YouTube - 25th World Irish Dance Championship Ladies 17-19 years

Or, see this one with traditional figures dancing of the "ThreeTunes."  I've learned this particular "3 Tunes" dance once upon the time with my main ceili/set dance group but we don't execute this nearly as beautifully:)  Also, stepdancers jump and kick higher, and point their toes more, than the dancers in my ceili / set dance group do.  YouTube - Irish Dance 3 Tunes

Two individual dancers videos :YouTube - Elizabeth Claro - Irish Dancing Champion from a competition, and then YouTube - Colin's Reel from a party.

This nice video is from last years Western Region Oireachtas.  The champions of each age group come perform a short bit individually, a "step out.".  Note the fancy solo dresses "costumes" for the girls.  I saw some very "original" solo dresses at the SRO (Souther Regional Oireachtas) last year.  Girls can design their own dresses, within "reason," at this level of competition, or purchase them designed from someone else, or used.  (M's is used, and she's not at THIS level, but at Prizewinner level for some dances, just needs to compete more starting withmore feisana.)  Note that the wigs tend to be "larger" for the girls at this higher level, also.  And, yes, boys and girls must keep their arms straight down, and their backs STRAIGHT even while kicking that high.    YouTube - WRO Parade of Champions 2006

I like this dance, really like hearing the hard shoes best, just wish this video wasn't quite so dark -- YouTube - Cashel Dennehy Accapella  

This 30-second video is a "collage" of dances that captures some of the excitement that can be felt with Irish stepdancing and performing:  Portraits of Ireland  The drum that starts off this clip is called a bodhran. 

Or, catch this one:  The Rhythm of Ireland Dance Company then chose your "player."   Another nicely done, 35-second "college" of Irish stepdancing / performance.  The musical instrument shown in this one is a bagpipe.

And just to finish this entry off with another fine hard shoe dance:  YouTube - Burke School of Irish Dance - Wheeling Celtic  Oh, yeah.

No doubt there are several other great Irish stepdancing videos out there!  Dance for the joy of it, the spirit.  Such as these young ladies dancing an 8-hand in beach sand with waves and seabirds nearby:  YouTube - Irish Dance At The Beach

 


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Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Anticipation

The letters were to go out starting Monday, inviting M and the other dancers to join one of the dance troupes for next year.   Some have to reaudition, but M and the others in her particular troupe do not.  The two main troupes are being reconfigured.  This invitation will tell M which one of the newly-created troupes she'll be in, meaning which week of summer camp, meaning which friends she'll stay with, which ones from the previous 2 years, she may be back with.

Is it really another dance year almost done, already?  When the studio M had taken classes out of was closing, we decided M (and I with driving), would give this year a test to see if she'd switch Irish step dance schools, or stay.   M had loved being in the performing troupe from that studio for 2 years, starting her second year of Irish stepdancing.  The changes were coming fast.  Ma asked us to decide with short notice about M accepting a position with one of the performing troupes in her main studio.  Ma said that the way M dances is just what the figures adju.... crap, the judges are looking for, and she'd like M to join one of her figures teams for Oireachtas last December.   Who is staying, who is going?  I hated to jump ship quickly into a new ID school and have that be a wrong choice.  

M went to camp last year, mostly, been in classes and rehearsals and feisiana and Oireachtas, and gigs, and more gigs, and another "big show," and a full weekend last weekend of recital stuff, and yes, even the death of Amy and her funeral last September.   M and I both knew, months ago, yes, we're committed now, this is thee best ID school for M's purposes and interests; we just LOVE Ma, and her style, and everything, and the community spirit is much more supportive and not the competitive feel I've seen in other ID school communities.   There is another ID school we'd consider (out of several options), but, like most ID schools, it focuses only on the traditional, not incorporating "world" music and choreography and etc., which is part of our appeal.  M's bonded more, and so have I, actually, with other parents.   A side factor is that Si has joined this same ID school, wanting to be like M:)   C has had to be supportive of M's dancing, now, this year, and that has helped on few levels.  I do hope that things stay improving.  So, M and I had our decision made previous to M being invited to the figures teams again this year for December 2007 Oireachtas, and before saying that yes, M is interested in staying in one of the performing troupes for next year.

Yet, next year seemed so far off.  We weren't to hear of the new placements until after the recital, which seemed far away when first announced.   Even last week, we were still so caught up with dress rehearsals and class photos and such, and the dancers working so well together as a team.  M did sub in for the other troupe some, in dances she'd done in previous years, and in general rehearsals, as she was available to fill in.  Ma has noticed this, even moving M up to the next level (regular) class, as L's mother says, "FINALLY!"  Yes.  Finally, sheesz.  But, Ma had her reasons, M did get more attention for a while, and we bid our time.  Ma speaks well of M, even grades M well when she gives her biannual eveluations.

After a rehearsal for the new "next year's" figures teams earlier this week, L and M were hugging each other, "I hope we'reon the same troupe next year!!!"   Yeah, me, too.  And with K (who had gotten into her mother's vehicle already).  Now, it's not just which week of summer camp, which we need to know inregards to Ian's wedding, but who will spend all the rehearsal and gig and choreography and planning hours together, and who will see each other only in other ways.  L and M will do some other dance things together, and socially, and I'm fairly certain we'll stay meeting up with K and her family, also.  Just , now it's anxious / hopeful time.

M told me that I could NOT open the envelope if it came yesterday, which it didn't.  I wanted to visit Dad at lunch today, couldn't (but will tonight), so will just have M open up the mailbox today.  Soon, we'll know.   Ma's pretty good about these things, so I know it'll work out.  Still! :)

Tuesday, May 1, 2007

Online and Female -- is that a problem?

I'm public, online, female, joining with thousands of others.  There are a few message boards I like to go onto occasionally.  I have online friends there, sometimes IRL friends, too.  Not chatrooms, though, as they all seem to be for quick sexual pickups.  And, I have this "blog."  It's public, viewable, open, and I'm a woman.   Is that an issue?  Does that put me at more risk?

I just got IM'd earlier.  His SN was similar to someone I know.  Approximately two  short and normal lines, then "what u wearing"  Seems I did NOT know him.  I asked him if I knew him, and that what I'm wearing wasn't for discussion / didn't matter.  "idk im horny"  As if that's MY problem?  What classy guy trolls that way, anyway?  He obviously hasn't read my stuff if he thinks I'm into that crude stuff with a stranger bit.  Annoyed at the disturbance, I wrote that he needs to find someone else, then, and to have a good evening.  What he wrote was laughably infantile and unprintable, and reported to aol.  Sadly, there are just enough jerks out there IM'g that type of crap too often, even if it's rare I have to report someone.  Typically, the guy will either stop IM'g, or apologize and move on. 

I've had at least two online stalkers that I know of.   One was more the desperately lonely type; he did not mean harm even if it started getting a mite spooky.  Another woman had (has?) evil intent.  I won't get into either, not publically on here.  Nor how I discovered a sick man using online methods to try to get to pre-pubescent girls primarily via their mothers. 

The overall online population probably roughly mimics general society as a whole, great people, harmless ones, some mild jerks, and those relishing the anonymity of it all so feels free to use it for perversion or violence and anger.  

I'm IM'g with an online male friend now, chatting about our kids, and even his girlfriend, whom I "know," too.  A lot of good, decent people online, many I'm happy to have "met" over the years.   A few I've even met IRL, from parenting boards to dance events, to a gathering for Thanksgiving after-dinner drinks one night with a few regulars.  There is good to be had in online communities, also.

Being visible online obviously provides people with more public exposure, and hence, subject them to more vulnerabilities and risks.   The immediacy and the anonymity of the internet contribute to the nastiness that can escalate and the types of threats.  What I've experienced has left me self-censoring in my journal, not expressing fully what I'd like to a lot of times, and of course, not mentioning things such as where my child or I may be in advance unless it's a huge event.  It keeps me from allowing my girlfriend to put a link in her blog, to mine, as we know someone who may know her blog, and he could misuse the information he finds in mine.  I'm a multi-faceted woman, like most are, yet I can't openly express all of that.  It has stopped others I know, or had them retreat to private blogs, and even switching SN's and creating new private blogs, to escape someone.   One female blogger seems to be walking on eggshells as she writes, sometimes deleting and /or rewriting her entries, afraid of further harrassment.   Sometimes bloggers get harrassed online without the sexual aspect, sometimes nasty comments or e-mails, sometimes judgements and assumptions made and expressed without knowing "the rest of the story," or sometimes, just being cruel.  

For me?  The threat against my personal security, and that of my daughter, has stifled me, stifled my public writing, but as yet, has not stopped me.  I like to believe that the good in the world, outweighs the bad. 

I'm surprised (Journals Editor) Joe hasn't mentioned this article yet, from yesterday's "The Washington Post," about how people, men and women but more so women, can feel stifled in their public blogs:   Sexual Threats Stifle Some Female Bloggers - washingtonpost.com

Please feel free to mention your thoughts and experiences on this, on the article, on blogging and personal security.   And, yes, I'm too well aware that men get harrassed and abused also (and that male victims of abuse are usually less likely to be believed even if they do get the courage to report it).

Update:  Joe's been preparing an entry on this article and topic since the article came out (and usually appreciates input).  And, for the record, I'm fine:)  Sometimes this crap can tick me off, as it should to any ofus.  Yes, I completely changed my SN's over a year ago, due to continued online bs and hackers, but not blog-related.  Right now?  Being cautious is prudent.  I'd like to say more sometimes.  But, really, I am fine.  Thanks, all!

Monday, April 23, 2007

Morning has broken....... God's recreation of the first day.

"Morning has broken, like the first morning.

Blackbird is singing, like the first bird.

Priase for the singing, praise for the (ringing? [in of])

God's recreation of the new day."  -- Cat Stevens (I may have the exact words a touch off)

Yesterday early morning had a slight chill in the air.  And birds singing and vocalizing.  Probably every bird in this area in the spring, including a few distant geese (Canada geese?) and an owl who perhaps hadn't gone to bed quite yet.  I'd hear a few, then another bird of another species would start tweetering.  I was reminded of the song I list above, and sang "my" song along with the other birds.

Sunday morning.  My step-niece was confirmed in church, my church, where I'd been accepted as a member 31 years ago.  I suppose that was my confirmation as well, whatever the terminology.   Step-niece also attends my former high school (her dad, my stepbrother, did for only 1 year).  Mom, Bob, and I joined my stepbrother's ex-wife (whom I'm actually closer to than to him), and Step-niece.  It was rather nice to be able to re-introduce Mom and Bob to some people who matter to me there at church, as they'd not been since M was in Vacation Bible School?  Newer wing even.  I knew a few of the newly-confirmed youth.  Step-niece was both happy but embarrassed.  She's had two good friends more away recently and a good friend from church not there, and she's very attention-phobic, anyway.  Tis okay that we didn't then take her to lunch as anticipated.   We had a guest speaker from "high up" in my demonimation, speaking of tGod's 5th miracle, sight being given to the man born without eyes / sight.  Recreation.  Open your eyes.  Etc.  I liked it, actually.  My mother didn't appear to care for his style, but she enjoyed the music, composed by one of our members.  Our Senior pastor announced his departure after 14 years, and hey, his youngest is a graduating senior, great kid, maybe it is time to move along.  Change, transition, re-create, per God's will.

I'd wished M could have joined on this glorious morning and day, yet happy to think she was at her somewhat best friend's (Md's) home, or hopefully so.  I'd texted her Saturday evening, so not to disturb her but to get in touch.  Then again, C tends to take her cell hpone away and/or not let her use it when on visitation with him.   She'll get it.  (And, honestly, I do wish for her to have time for a relationship with her father, too.  Not sure if she'll be able to complete a confirmation class, as it meets weekly (unless C allows her attendance when she's with him).  Time will tell.)

In another state, a friend whom I know from when he attended my church, was the speaker for his church's "Creation Care Sunday."   He is also their "Science and Nature in Christian Perspective" teacher.   I'd sent him happy birthday / earth day greeting, and he responded, in part, "meaning I will get to (have to) teach not just once but twice on my birthday.  Pray for stamina ..."

I had to re-bag some of Dad's trash bags for they'd been gotten into.  I retrieve the recyclables from just those bags.  I don't go back through all of them.  Such waste, yet he really is best served via use of small, manageable, not spoilable or as spillable, containers.  Dad loves the outdoors, always took me hiking, etc., has no problem with the concept of recycling, yet doesn't quite grasp it sufficiently to separate his recyclables out when bagging up his trash.  It's just not ingrained as it will be for our children's generation.  So, at least he's bagging up his trash:)  Even what I eat is different from him, except we both loves our fatty dairy items and tons of citrus fruits, lol.  I include a few non-meat entrees in with his food each week, however.  (Dad had declined being driven to my place for a nice bath, so I washed his feet and legs after clipping his nails, him declining to even wash himself further, face even.  I thought, okay, I am nowhere near Jesus here, I'm simply caring for my dad who needs this and, well, he's my dad.  I wish there was more money, that I could do more.   Finances are depressing me.  His cherry tree, dead (which M suggests should get cut down, yes, it should, but I can't, physically speaking, and there's not the money to pay for it).  I glanced at the yard he'd always cared well for.  The forsythia still blooms yellow, the crocuses gone, yet, the crabapple tree is starting to bloom magenta.  I can't recall when I last saw that tree actually blooming.

I felt rejuvenated after the ceili:)   Various bits.  I'd baked my potluck contribution on Saturday when I had the oven going, anyway, yes, gasp, I turned it on AND USED IT, twice as feels too wasteful not to take advantage of an already-warm oven.  Live music is usually great and it was, even if taking a few extra moments with Dad had me running late (of course, time with Daisy inbetween).   Skirdagh Set is not one I've done before, but it's easy enough to learn, and, as my partner said, complex enough to be interesting.  Just four figures, all different, the last one a waltz.  The next dance was a waltz, and I told the man I was fine with breaking it and him waltzing with his wife.  Instead, his toddler ran up to him.  "Or, perhaps father/daughter."  I have fond memories of waltzing with a young M.  This man then danced about with his daughter, holding her high at times.  One dance instructor and her husband had their precious newborn there:)  Corofin Plain set with E, who'd spent a tempting day on his boat Saturday ah sounds nice, other dances, finishing with Clare Lancers, of course, this time with T.  T is a really good dancer who also improvises and makes everything fun.  We were tops across from E, and my corner was KuteGuy.  This gave me a chance to talk briefly with him, again, too.  His partner young recent college grad, whom he walked out with, slowly, approximately 2 inches from each other, lol.  Very sweet and I'm happy for them.  Ahh, but stress relief for me, physically, mentally.

Home to Daisy, whom I'd decided I'd let spend as much time outside as she wished.  Sliver of moon, spring air.  Everything's been budding more lately, some bushes so fragrant, some trees showing only minimal signs of previous (freezing) burn.   The magnolia's are blooming.  I noticed, from the first warm Saturday morning, until Sunday night, so many more of our neighborhood's cherry trees have popped out their pink fluffy pom-poms.  Lots and lots of pink blossoms.  God's re-creation.  Thank you , Lord:) 

Friday, April 20, 2007

In The Mail and Turning 13

In the mail, is one pink ticket and one yellow ticket.  One for each night of M's upcoming recital.   M is in both nights, with her performing troupe, which includes one night for her class (she's moving up from just after the recital, finally), and one night for her 4-hand figures team.  I smile, happy to know the tickets arrived.   I always help out, anyway, and this time that means I got the tickets free oh yeah!

That's really good, as NOT in the mail yet was April 1st's child support check.   I'm not so happy about that.

Daisy doesn't care, wagging her tail just to see me home, enjoying a brisk walk in the, wait, is this warm sunshine.   She's eager to stop and flirt with Colt.  Inside, after dinner, of course Tink anticipates her kitty treats, two of the last few.  I'm not ready to stay in tonight, feeling almost restless.  It's bright out, warm.   I may just have to visit Target before the reshowing of Grey's Anatomy I didn't get to concentrate on last night.   Kitty treats I can afford.  Cat's don't comprehend if I was out of treats, or food.   I counted out $15.80 left, and have a gift card I earned.

I tack the tickets up near the postcard with the set list for Sunday's ceili (dance).

In the e-mail, Mom confused which weekend M's recital is, asking if there were still tickets for either of this weekend's shows.   Another e-mail explains how to stilll get tickets, phew:)  Mom thought she'd be too sick still.   I'll drive her.

In the e-mail, is a notice changing the time for one of M's two school play shows.  We'd asked the teachers to please change the time so M could also participate.  Both play shows were scheduled the same dates/almost same times as M's two recital shows she'd already committed to.   Now, probably too late to include M in the play, the time for one is changed.  I forward it to M and ask her.  Not sure if we'll get to talk this weekend or not (C usually refuses us contact, in any fashion, if he can help it).

In the mail today is an invitation to a local school's Scottish festival I've yet to get to.  I do support their booth at the Southern Maryland Celtic Festival.   Now, where was the invite to my former sorority's open house event that same day?   I haven't been in that house since before I graduated.

In the mail Tuesday was a letter from (my) Mom to M.   In Monday's mail, was the invitation for Md's sleepover birthday party Saturday night.   The first thing M always checks out is the date and whether or not she is with me.  Md is already 13 (wow to even think it and type it, many of M's classmates have already turned 13).

Last year, M thought she'd be going to Md's sleepover birthday party.  C often won't let M attend birthday parties for M's friends, but it sounded like this time, it'd be a go for at least for part of it.   Instead, even though they were down in Md's area, they just drove M back to their house never saying a word (per M who said she didn't feel she could ask or bring it up).  M didn't feel able to even call Md and say even last minute not to worry M's not able to come now (which I also heard from Md's mother). 

M's getting stronger, slowly, as she gets older, in asking them.  C even told M this year that he understands it's probably the most important thing going on this weekend for M (her horse event Sunday C is not letting her attend, but even this talking with her like this is new for C).

M was SO excited this morning.  "Last year, Md said they made TWO movies, and it was thee best ever party," said with hopeful expectation for THIS year.   The boys stay for several hours but not overnight.  This is a big social event for M and her friends.  Apparently, as Md said that Si could also join the party for a couple hours or so, to not feel left out or be away from M TOO long, "and Dad and Sh can just go out to dinner or something" that translates into M being able to attend Md's party (she assumes for overnight, too).   I didn't comment; M had found a way to get herself able to go (she *thinks*) and was happy.   "Maybe let your friends know not to mention the Barbie doll to Si."  "Oh, right."  M brought in a Barbie doll for "bungee jumping" with the various math groups.  Even if M hasn't played with Barbie's for ages, M decided to tell her friends that this one is Si's Barbie.  Barbie's head popped off this week until J pushed it back on and now Barbie doesn't have a neck.  "They think I owe Si a Barbie doll now."  (C has typically hated anything girly, anyway, especially anything like Barbie dolls, but Sh has gotten Si some.)

M's been preparing Md's gifts for a while, all cherry-oriented except the card and bag we picked up Monday.   She verified where they were before trying not to use up ALL the hot water:)  Then, M gathered them this morning after confering with me if she had any outgrown jeans to put the cherry applique on for Md, and butt sizes.  Despair, "I have no butt!!"  My family tends to have bums not to be, um, even remotely confusable with J-Lo.  M is fine, Md and their friends are fine, yet I ask M, "When you're 45 like I am, do you want a butt like mine, or like the sizes that most of the other women you know who are 45-ish."  "Okay, maybe better shape." 

At school, we're behind J's family van.  M seems glad, even if she may be losing her crush on him.  M slid on her backpack, grabbed the bag with freshly washed clothes from her father's, I love you's, and she and J walked in to school together.  

Thursday, April 19, 2007

1 year anniversary

Today marks 1 year since I started this whole jouirnaling aka blogging thing. :)   I have learned a lot.   I've realized that I'd get more (quantity) loyal readers if I segmented my various focuses, one journal for this, another for that, yet that's not me.  Instead, I am comprised of these various (random) threads that make up the whole fabric of my life.  And, I like who does read:)  I started online journaling (blogging) as two of my friends had aol journals, and I missed getting my thoughts down.  I rarely handwrite anything any more.  I've made new friends I'm grateful for knowing:)   Heck, I've even meet blogger Mike V I'm Going Sane in a Crazy World  in real life when M and I happened down his way.  I've read some really good stuff.

I was chosen "Guest Editor" one week in November on a day I was really busy.  This was before I had any clue what it even truly meant, and shortly before  (the then-)Journals Editor Jeff was (update) laid off along with about 500 others (sorry, Jeff, for wording that incorrectly!).  (Here's his personal blog I enjoy reading:  And I Am Not Lying, For Real )  It was great to highlight some journals I really liked, and I learned a lot from the experience.

Then, returning Journals Editor Joe kept my journal up as Featured Blogger for a while during which he worked to reconfigure the new AOL People Connections Page.   Fun at first, I admit, I was relieved when it finally came off, as if I wasn't on quite the public display any more.  Still public, but not the same feeling that hindered my comfort factor in writing. 

I've been part of Carnivaol  CarnivAOL™  (fun way to explore a variety of best posts / favorite journals.)  I've voted for others to receive best blogger-like awards 2006 VIVI AWARD JOURNAL.  I didn't even know there were these awards, or an AOL Connection page, or Journals Editors or message boards devoted to this "J-Land" stuff (never liked the term "J-land").  I'm learning to become more comfortable referring to this asa "blog."  I've figured out a lot of the basics of AOL journaling.  I can insert photos! and change fonts and add links.  I know what a tag is.  I laugh when the "visitors log" resets itself yet again.  I guess I could get fancy.  It'd probably be fun to learn:)  It may be too distracting from just getting my thoughts from my head through the keyboard; I'm not sure.  I'd LIKE to learn how to insert photos in a "big" way, in the middle of text (or maybe in the "about me" section even), and videos not just the link.   I KNOW there's an icon for 1 year journaling, but I wouldn't know howto add it! (or how to get it).

My "style" is still evolving.  I'm glad that I made this one public, for it's how I've gotten to share ADD/ADHD information, and obtained more, and met other blogging friends.   Being public, however, means I can't just spout off, or list everything.  I intend to start a personal journal also, one I can have family view, including M.  (I actually started one but deleted it, uncertain just what I wish tocall it.)  All neutral or positive comments (no dissing my mother for example, even if we've done great with each other lately! wow, or venting that child support is 3 weeks late), adding names and dates and stuff that I have to keep confidential on here.  I'm not sure yet how disjointed that will feel for me to have two journals/blogs.  I have gotten comfortable enough to finally add photos of myself on here, and some more specifically of M.   The private journal will include more photos, perhaps not many, but I won't have to screen out the ones with, say, my dance group's name in it, etc.  I'll give it a trial run:)  (If you wish to be added, please just let me know, thanks.)

So I'm not a wet behind the ears freshman on here any longer.  My "new" boss has been here almost a year.  M has grown MANY inches taller and is in middle school now, BJ and I are good friends, the aquarium still isn't set up (setbacks and no longer of as much interest).   I've learned what an Oireachtas is and am so proud of M (an O-what???).   I took M to a DC nightclub (oy but great).  Another year gone by.  I've caught snippets of my thoughts, our moments.  It's still evolving; I'm starting my sophmore year now:)   I feel good here.  Community spirit even,which I may not have gotten if I'd had this be private.  Thanks, all.  

p.s. -- the photo is from the Cherry Blossom (Sakura) Japanese Street festival last Saturday.  M and I have cherry blossoms painted on our faces and are standing in front of a pink pig with wings parade balloon. :)  That was a first, also!